secret getaway

When I was still living with my parents, I've always wondered why my dad would almost always be up by 3 or 4 in the morning even on weekends when my brother and I don't have classes. It's not like he needs 2 or 3 hours to prepare food for us and for mom but he always wakes up at those strange hours.

Now, I have a vague idea why. You see, it's just 4 in the morning and I'm already here in front of my laptop doing absolutely nothing but thinking and posting. I'm not preparing for work yet. I'll probably do that in about an hour and a half from now. I still haven't had my coffee but I'm wide awake and my brain is already quite active. It's really strange waking up this early because I'm quite used to 6AM-wake-ups. But, you know what's even stranger? It's the fact that my head is clear and I can hear my thoughts better than ever.

I guess it's because there's not much to occupy one's mind at these early hours of morning. It's very easy to listen to your own thoughts because there's no work or any other things to distract you from listening. You see, as of the moment, Mateo and Andrea are safely and soundly sleeping beside me without a care in the world. And with work not less than a few hours away, I feel so relaxed and peaceful that it almost feels so surreal. I can hear my thoughts more clearly! I guess that's why my dad likes it so much. It's his very own space and time for himself and for his thoughts. Now I understand! This is his own secret getaway where he could listen to himself, organize his thoughts, and put a perspective on things.

I just hope this means that his wisdom is rubbing off a little on me, because it's either this or insomnia.

still here

It's been nearly a year since I last thought about leaving school to find work somewhere else, but I guess I really didn't have the heart to leave.

So I'm still here, teaching, just like what my heart tells me to do. Of course, it was a huge help that the school gave us a little leeway in our financial dilemmas. But with mateo's growing demands for time and attention, I guess andrea and I are really staying here for good.

So for all my students, you can say goodbye to the idea of me leaving. I'm just not quite sure if that's a good thing for everyone, but yes, I'll be here to stay... Hahaha!